I love how personal and yet succinct this article is. Each time she reposts it I always go back and read it and it's always relevant.
http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/turning-straw-gold/201104/the-stigma-chronic-fatigue-syndrome
I've faced this myself, many times. Not so often with doctors because as someone without health insurance I don't actually get to go see doctors or to try new treatments. (I'm not going to go any farther with that because I am only frustrated and angry about it) But every time I try to explain to friends that I'm sick...or if a professor asks if there are any health problems that may interfere with my ability to do the work in class, yea, it comes up.
Sadly, I often recognize some inner shaming going on. It's almost like the disbelief and skepticism I see in another's eyes makes me question myself. I wonder if I'm really sick. (I'm blessed with some ability to have "normalcy" in that I work a job and go to school. It's not easy, of course, and the time when I'm not at work or not at school I'm in bed.) But sometimes I wonder, maybe I DO simply need more exercise, and what if I take an energy drink, yea....that will get me through a work out. And once I get through a few workouts then it will all be easier for me.
Right.
Then I remember that the last time I tried to work out I ended up in the worst relapse I've ever had and I still haven't recovered from it. (up until then it seems I was in a relapsing/remitting phase for approximately 12-15 years. Yea, I've been sick a long time) When I have activity outside of my envelope I get worse. My muscles don't work like everyone else's and pushing them only means I'll be in more pain and won't be able to continue with ADLs until I recover.
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