It never goes as planned....

......and I'm ok with that. By "ok" I mean I don't feel much suffering at all around the issue. Sure, I like to plan. I've got some mad organizational skills that need regular exercise but I also know that it almost never works out how I thought it would. Isn't that grand?? Universe can plan some pretty amazing stuff for me and if I held on more tightly to what I think I want right now then I wouldn't get to see or feel the new stuff, the amazing stuff, the unexpected stuff.

I always seem to think I know what I'm going to write about before I do. After my last post I thought it was going to be very important to write all about my diet and my smoothies, but no, today I find it simply doesn't matter.

I seem to still have some expectation around how often I'm going to blog here but that doesn't work either. Sometimes I need to express, sometimes I need to be Seen, sometimes I'm lonely.

I'm quite grateful that I'm such a natural introvert. Since getting sicker I've spent a lot of time alone at home with only my cat, Switch, and my Interwebz for company. Here he is doing a great job of it. :-)

But I do get lonely. I love to hear about events happening, even if I can't go. I like to be invited even though I know as soon as I read the invitation that I'm going to decline. If you do see me out then it's a good day, or else I really really really needed some socializing.

IMsL is coming up in two weeks and I'm already feeling a little anxious about it. So many people going every direction and a lot of them I want to see because I might see them once a year at best. It will be busy and active....and I'm already thinking about how to plan my outfits to cover up the hives. If it's even possible. Going shopping tomorrow to see if I can find something new, pretty, girly, and possibly inexpensive to wear for the event. And definitely stopping at Target for some tights. The hives still seem to like to be on my legs, especially if I don't have time to rest. A lot of my regular outfits show skin, especially the upper chest, shoulders, and neck, and that's right where a lot of hives like to be. I haven't figured this one out yet. Sheer long sleeve top under the corset?

They were pretty bad yesterday and this morning too, but the most active thing I did today was walk out to the kitchen so they are much better. Switch has stayed by me the whole day. Such a trooper. Cause it's pretty hard on a cat who had a mom who's in bed all day, donchaknow. ;-)